I fear I have lost the ability to express myself with both clarity and sentiment and it terrifies me, because without it I don’t know who I am.
I feel the statement below profoundly, too often, and to my core and yet I am unable to articulate it with any of the grace, clarity or poetry kay kay has managed. I have always known that she is an outstanding visual artist, I did not know she was a wordsmith too (it seems she tries rather hard to hide it)

i get moments when my everything is overshadowed with deep emotion. there is no real problem, which makes everything a problem. because all i do is stay still to feel. every dismissed speckle of feeling fights its way to the foreground momentarily paralyzing my ability to feel just that little bit sane. trickled tears with no purpose other then to sour my face.